My life has been crazy lately..as you can tell I have had little time for my precious blog. Between nursing school (which is the toughest, most stressful, most rewarding thing I've ever experienced thus far), getting ready for my trip to Colombia coming up shortly and dealing with everyday life, my time has been stretched far and wide. But today I felt the urge to update my few readers on my what's been going on in my crazy head lately.
I've been spending time on Monday nights with a group of girls discussing and diving into the word of God. We have been learning how to be better servant leaders in our church and in our everyday lives. I have loved spending time with the Lord and getting to know what He says about being a servant. I have learned that I must completely put myself aside and ask for opportunities to serve others. For the last few weeks I have woken up on Thursday mornings (this is my hospital day) and fervently prayed that God would give me an opportunity to serve someone else throughout the day. All I can say, is if you ask God to give you opportunities to serve, He certainly will. I have been stretched already to step outside of my comfort zone to serve someone else and the feeling is amazing. My heart is to serve the world and I am learning what that takes. I am learning what it means to have a true servant heart.
Over the past few weeks my desires have began to evolve into new desires. I feel my heart beginning to change and it is so exciting. I have always known that I loved Jesus, but lately I have learned that there is a difference in loving Jesus and being in love with Him. I am learning that I can't truly give my heart to another human being until I fall ultimately head over heels in love with my savior. My prayer over the last few weeks is that God would show me how to fall in love with Him; that He would fill my heart with so much love for Him. I want my priorities to reflect my relationship with Jesus. I want to spend time talking with Jesus. I want my thoughts to be consumed with Jesus. I want to love Him above all else. My desire is to fall in love with the one who loves me unconditionally.
I hope that I can be who God wants me to be. I pray everyday that God will continue to help me grow deeper in my walk with Him and that my light will shine all around me to bring Him glory. My hope and prayer is that God will shape me into the woman He desires me to be. Over the last few weeks, I have learned a lot about my character and what I want that to be. I have had to make hard decisions and take on uncomfortable situations, but I find myself thankful that Jesus is by my side directing me towards His plan for my life. I would rather follow Jesus and His calling on my life then be found in the middle of a life that is only of this world.
